Heart and Mind

I think we’re all familiar with the heart and mind issue. Your heart says one thing and your mind says another. I’ve been thinking and journaling a lot about the things that hinder me that I mentioned in my last post. And I figured out where all these hindrances stem from: it’s the whole heart and mind issue.

I’m not stubborn by being obstinate toward others; I’m actually quite passive toward others. The stubbornness is me vs. myself, my heart vs. my mind.
I’m not prideful by ways of saying “I’m better than you.” I am prideful when I believe I can do it or fix it myself.
My don’t-care attitude doesn’t come from not caring for other people. The don’t-care attitude kicks in when I believe something is too hard or too big to conquer.
My laziness isn’t from not wanting to do something; it’s about not feeling like it. Do you get it? Wanting and feeling; Heart and mind? And I usually use my laziness as an excuse for my don’t-care attitude.
My fear isn't the trepidation of where I'm heading. It's about how I'm going to get there.

After a long conversation a few days ago, it clicked a little. Things made a little more sense. It’s heart and mind. It’s about the way I process and about my heart and mind’s reaction.

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